(i just realised that i only blog when ive something that i need to tell someone but i just dk who to tell, so i guess blogging is the best. ha.)

so yeah, here it goes. (continue reading if you wanna spoil your cny) I dont know why, but on every occasion, eg. my birthday, cny, any occasion, mom will always get mad with me... maybe its my fault. My fault for being born into this world, my fault for being her daughter, my fault for not being a nice filial daughter, my fault for being a selfish bitch who doesnt care anything in the family, my fault for being materialistic, my fault for everything. Every fucking thing. ugh, i dont know why but i dont feel happy or excited for cny. (i had that feeling 2-3hours ago during reunion dindin) hope i'll feel better in the morning. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. i want to be happy. yup let me be happy for cny pleaseeeeeeee.

anyway, im gonna shou ye tonight. i want my daddy + mummy to live long long. <3>